Secrets Songtext

von Phora

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She said she couldn't stay to late
She gotta be home by ten she had school the next day
She wasn't the type to play
She ain't like them other chicks
She ain't known for getting drunk, poppin pills, or sucking dick
More like the type to show up to class an hour early
Never wearing shorts that's showing her ass
Gotta hold on her past
Can't let go of it
She don't really smile but nobody ever notices
Grade A student
All her teachers love her
She just wishes she felt that same love from her mother
But she's stuck in county jail for eighteen months
So its just her and pops and everyday he's drunk
They hardly talk so when she gets to the house
She goes straight to her room and she shuts the lights out
Hoping the next day comes sooner than later
She can't wait to move out four hundred dollars saved up
She knows she got a long way to go
But she keeps her head so high you'll probably never know
What she had to go through for so long, yo but she never forgets to hold on

She said
If you knew my secret I wonder what you'd say
I wonder if you'd leave and I wonder if you'd stay
I wonder if you'd see me in a different way its hard to hold this sin I think about it everyday
Yeah
I wonder what youd say
I wonder if youd see me in a different way
I think about it everyday

She met a kid named joey
Knew he had a crush
Always made her laugh
And said things to make her blush
But she tried so hard to pay him no attention
Scared her past would eventually ruin the friendship
Cuz its so hard for her to open her feelings
He said 'if you don't give me your heart beautiful Ima steal it'
So twelve months past and ever since he said that she been in love but every body has their set backs
Slowly but surely he was fading away
While she was falling deeper for him and she waited for days
For him to call her like he always did
But 5 days went by and
If you listen closely you can hear her still crying
She wrote on paper saying
"I'm sorry, I just wish you knew your the reason that my heart beats
Always made me smile
Ever since the day you saw me
You were my guardian angel when I had nobody
But there's something I haven't told you
For six years there was something that I had to go through that shattered my spirit and my dreams
I know you can see it
My father did these things to me and no one believed it
My mom was never there to see
I hope when she reads this she OD's on the very thing that broke us to pieces
You were the only person that I ever loved and it kills me inside to know that I was the one
To ruin what we had and I knew this would happen
I just thought me and you would have lasted
". Knife to her wrist then she dropped to the floor but right be before she cut she heard a knock at the door

She said: if you knew my secret I wounded what you'd say
I wonder if you'd leave and I wonder if you'd stay
I wounder if you'd see me in a different way (see me in a different way) I think about it everyday